I see you at work from across the room and wonder what it would be like... to go see a movie together and sit up all night talking to watch candlelight play in your hair and shadows dance along your brow but its too early for that now. I see you at the bar in animated conversation and wonder what it would be like... to wake up next to you some snowy morning and watch the blanks hug the curve of your hips to listen to the quiet sleepy breath and see your eyes closed in dreamy imagination but its too soon for that now. I see there isn't a message on the answering machine and wonder what it would be like... to have you remember we'd planned to get together and to think you want to be near me to hear you asking if I'm home yet and if I'd like to come over for tea but its too close for that now. I see you in the city with your new date and wonder if I should tell you... how glad I am to see you smiling and watch the lightness of your steps. to tell you how I feel when you look my way and flush when you say my name but its too late for that now.
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